So my winter break is coming to a close, in just a few days I will head back to K-State and start yet another semester. I am sure that this semester will hold many longs nights, crazy schedules, good friends and lots of life lessons. I can't even imagine what God has in-store for my life this semester and that is what brings me here this windy and cold afternoon.
I sat at my dinning room table reading through my bible trying to learn something from the passage in Acts I had opened up to. As I was reading thoughts about break started swirling around in my head. What had happened to this month away from life in Manhattan and what had I made of it? The answer to the latter wasn't something that I really enjoyed thinking about, but as I did God began to teach me something in the craziness that was my thoughts.
I spent a lot of my break thinking about things to come. A semester of school, work and friends. In a few months a summer of who knows what and then after that a journey across the ocean to China. You see I like to think about things to come, I like to plan out scenarios in my head and how I would/will react. I like to plan what I want my life to be like. I like to have it all figured out. Well if you know anything about Christ and following Him, this is not how He likes to work.
So this morning God brought one little word to my head in the midst of all of my thoughts, Faith. Towards the end of last semester and over most of this break I realized that I allowed my impatience to become a lot bigger than my faith. I deeply want to know what the future holds for my life. I want to know where I will end up and how God is going to use me.
The thought of a puzzle came to me this morning. My life is like a puzzle but because my life is not complete neither is this puzzle. So me being me I try to step back and figure out what this whole puzzle will look like once it is complete, however, I don't have the pieces to complete this puzzle, God does, and not only does He have the pieces but He gives me a new piece everyday. He asks that I have faith in the pieces He will give me and faith in the pieces he has already given me. He asks that as each day comes and He hands me a new piece that I use this piece to glorify Him by fitting into the other pieces where it belongs.
God is so patient in the middle of my impatience. Because of the way I am wired it is hard for me to trust Him with the next piece of the puzzle, but I am slowly, and I do mean slowly, learning that the picture He can see is much greater than the picture I want to see.
Psalms 103:22
"Praise the Lord, all his works
everywhere in his dominon.
Praise the Lord, O my soul."
